sometimes i feel like start wearing makeup, simply because i like the ritual of putting it on every morning. after washing your face, put on moisturizer, have a pouch with five or ten different things, in different colours and textures that makes you look different in different ways. i dont mean to hide behind the makeup, but you are covering something, you are putting someting on your skin that changes everything a little. even if its almost invisible, its there. i have to admit the part of makeup that tempts me the most, is the cases and packages they come in. or no, its not. its the ritual. standing in front of the bathroom mirror and change yourself a little, free to take it off whenever you want to. even though i bought a pretty expensive moisturizing cream this weekend, mainly because of the jar it was in, its just as much the thought about change. i like change. i like to study the colour of people's brows and lips, wonder if its natural or if it just looks natural. boys looking like wearing mascara when they dont. usually, people's natural colour is the most beautiful one, but lets say you put on makeup that makes you look like wearing no makeup, just a bit or slightly different from your basis. to me, its just as much about the thought of changing something looking good, its just that everyone automatically want to change to something prettier when they first choose to change. i like to put a shade of red lipstick under my eyes so it looks like ive been crying.