how to: express my mood

to express myself through visualism and sounds, makes me feel better.
i don't mean good, but better.
like today
paint my faces.
this music this music(click) and this music(click) plus the pictures together. oh i dont like this. i like it, but not to be like this.

i googled insomnia and delirium

feel hopeless and scared

and here comes the days when i just want to cancel all appointments and sit isnide myself in that messy, darg fog.